It's not what you think. I didn't fail at eating properly or at allowing myself an intense workout. No, I've done those things and more over the last few days. I even did 100 various types of crunches last night after the kids went to bed. I'm seeing good things in terms of these goals...
But what caught me off guard today & caused a big "F" evaluation of my own performance lies on the emotional side of things. Its that same stress that has caused me to genuinely fail at my other goals in the past. My normal response is to crash, doing nothing, engaging with no one, just checking out of life for whatever amount of time I can. And it wasn't even that this time I checked out for a large chunk of time, just long enough to process, pray, & write this post. Maybe all of about 10 minutes.
This time my big fail was allowing myself to even get to such a stressed placed that I even contemplated sabotaging my own goals by getting off track just to feel better. It starts alot sooner than the "Opps, I ate that" moment or the "Oh well I'll skip that workout" moment. Its statrs in the heart, & mine was just so tired tonight that it did not make the grade. But as my dear husband would say, its the perfect chance for a do-over. Looking forward to conquering this obstacle next time.
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